A Work In Progress

So I've been trying to find motivation. You know, "will power...the power to will away temptation! Tempation sold separately. Batteries Not Included!" Those are lines from an old DC Talk rap song. In the absense of said motivation, I have been doing what I want and eating what I want. So about four days ago, I decided to just start cutting back and keeping a food journal with a friend. I'm waiting to see how my metabolism responds to the lack of high calorie, high fat foods. If I can't see a result pretty quickly, I may look into some sort of fat burner. I'm not really all that into putting medications into my body, but I am into finding myself under all of this baby fat!

Naughty or Nice?

I'm ready for it. I mean, who wouldn't be if they were in my shoes. I want to be wanted by my husband. I want him to look at me and think about naughty things!! So maybe it's time to take a step that I would never consider if not for my age and circumstance. By that, I mean maybe it's time I considered taking weight loss pills. I don't mean it to be a 'quick fix' kind of thing. I want to do something to get my metabolism jump started. You see, I am the type of person that needs to see some results before I get completely motivated. I don't know why that is, but I am.

I have several different friends who are taking diet pills. They tell me they eat so much less and are loosing weight just because of that. I don't know exactly how it all works, but I wanna try it for myself.

Model Figure

Okay, do you do this?? When I feel a guilty wave pass over me as I'm eating a dessert or ordering a soda, I think, "After this birthday or that holiday, I am going on a diet!" Yeah... that's where I am. I know it's completely unrealistic to try to diet right now. I have to make this and that for Thanksgiving, and class parties for Christmas are coming up. Then company parties, special events and Christmas. There is no way I'm gonna loose even a fraction of a pound unless my will power is in check... and it ain't if you were wondering! I want those buckeyes and that turkey and dressing and mashed potatoes with extra butter and sweet potatoes.

I took a look at a few diet pills a while back and now that I'm not nursing, I'm seriously considering giving one a try. Lipodrene claims to be more effective, so maybe that one. But I'm not willing to have really terrible side effects.

I wish I could find a healthy balance and learn the beauty of portion control. I think that this is something I should have worked harder at when I was younger and I just might need a little extra help now that I'm in my thirties!

Cha-cha-cha-cha changes!

So, I've been doing diet drinks sporatically since we got back from Disney and can't seem to get into a groove. I complain about my body, but I'm doing very little to make any changes. I have toyed with the idea of ordering some diet pills now that I'm not nursing, but I always end up talking myself out of spending the money. There are ALWAYS more important things to spend our money on... especially when you are stretching every dollar as far as it will go these days!

But the bottom line is that I have got to come up with some sort of game plan to get a grip on my weight. I don't want to end up a fat, middle aged women who only thinks about food.

I'm active as far as my kids are concerned, but not for myself. I need to do this for me. No one else!

10 Years Younger

Has anyone seen that show? They do make-overs on women that have given up on their appearance and you would not believe the difference!!
Every time someone takes a picture of me, I always think "Well there's some motivation to get busy loosing weight." I hate seeing pictures of myself... especially because I am slowly coming to the realization that I am no longer cool. When I was single, I had trendy clothes and accessesories. I also had up-to-date hair styles and highlights. Now that my money heads to different directions like groceries, diapers, and replacing too-small shoes, I know that I need to do something to make myself 'current' again!! I'm not quite to the point of trying diet pills, like the ones that have Orovo in them, but I also haven't ruled that out! I mean, if there's something out there that could help speed up the metobolic process a bit, I'm all for it... just as long as it doesn't mess with my health! There are too many uncertainties in life as it is! I have lost about five pounds thanks to a couple of nasty virus bugs. I know they have an orovo detox product for sale. Maybe I should try that first. Sounds like a place to start anyway.

Hey, I have a question... why is it when people comment that they think you've lost weight always seems to be the times when you feel the heaviest? That always happens to me!

The quest continues

In my quest to obtain the perfect figure, I have tried many things. Low calorie, low carb, low sugar. I even tried the grapefruit diet and the soup diet. I've done Slimfast and a vegetarian diet. And, in my most naive moments, I've even tried diet pills. They made me feel sort of funny, though.

Now, I'm ready. I mean I feel mentally prepared to get myself going in the right direction! I want portion control. I plan to eliminate almost all sugar from my diet... and that means sodas! I plan to limit, but not eliminate carbs in my diet. And I plan to try to eat 5-6 small meals a day.

Then I plan to incorpate exercise. Walking to start, at the local park while the boys play. Then I plan to start running. I have a friend who swears that yoga helps her. So she is going to lend me her yoga dvd. I'll let you know how that works into my plan! I'm up for trying anything new!!